today is my 37th. birthday & i definately had not planned on posting anything about that here, until this morning…
i felt myself crying this morning in my sleep, i was balling in my dream & tony was there & i haven’t seen him so real in such a long, long time. i was just crying & he walked right up to me & he put his hands on my shoulders & he said… ” i am o.k., have a good day”. i woke right up after that & i was laughing & crying, i’m glad that shane was still asleep because i must have looked completely crazy, both sobbing & laughing so hard in my sleep.
i think what also woke me up was sophia sitting up in bed pushing on me with her feet, basically kicking me.
i looked over at her & she was watching t.v. with her head on the pillow, she looked at me & was laughing & i noticed that she had chocolate on her face. she had obviously crawled out of bed without us knowing & gotten m&m’s from my night stand & crawled back into bed with them… i could not stop laughing, oh-my-gosh she was so funny, looking at me so proud of herself & i could hear her crunching on those m&m’s & she was just smiling away… god, i love her.
so, by the way the first few minutes of my day went, i know that today will be a good day, birthday or not.